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I've done things I'm not proud of and would rather forget, so for now, I'm keeping my heart under lock and key.  This is my stab at a fresh start, and I don't want to compromise it.

If you're on my friends list, you're here because I know you and trust you, or I've decided we'll be good friends.

Thank you for understanding.
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 10


So, previously on Brill’s LiveJournal....

...We started deconstructing Rape Tropes in fiction, Brill dug up part of her past that should have stayed buried, and she admitted the one thing she has never and will never regret writing, and is now going to bury all of that under an onslaught of writing analysis. TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR NONCON AND ABUSE.
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Still working out how the next Let’s [Re]Write segment’s going to play out. I admit I haven’t written anything yet for it, even though I promised at least TWO full-blown fics. x_x I have a lot of writing and editing to do this weekend. See you then.
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 9

So here we are. Chapter 9.

This is where the TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR ALL THE ABUSE AND NON-CON START. I will be adding future triggers as they are relevant, but...yeah. This is where I start tearing a certain trope a new asshole--not necessarily the story, mind you.

The story’s just part of a much bigger problem and attitude, in fandom and elsewhere.
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I wish I could do more, I do, but this is getting long enough. I PROMISE I will work on Chapter 10 tomorrow and bring some more commentary on Rape Tropes in fanfic. And then there will be another break, because I have to work on my writing segments for “Let’s [Re]Write”. Let’s just say this segment’s going to be longer than the last one.

Also I need to take a hot bath.

Because again, fuck my BNF past.  I am never bringing up my Hetalia fanfic again, and if I do you all have a right to smack me.  That was honestly a worse idea than using my personal example of what my dad did last year to prove that you don't need sexual abuse to deeply fuck up a person.  All you need is someone who doesn't understand self-injurious behavior, the belief that homeless people have better attitudes than you do, and a threat to evict you from the house you're renting from him to keep you from hurting yourself.

...And this needs a separate entry, preferably f-locked.

I'm sorry.  I'm okay, I promise.  I'm going to take a bath and go to bed early.  I'm not relapsing--I've just got to remember I've a backbone of iron and people at work who love me just the way I am.  I'm going to be okay.

daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 7 and Chapter 8


Index
Brill's Intro

Quest
1 - Family || 2 - Weakness || 3 - Regret || 4 - Preparations || 5 - Picnic || 6 - Realization || 7 - Releasing || 8 - Light



So here we’re doubling up again--Chapter 7 and 8 together.

I did notice that there seemed to be a few issues with some things I posted yesterday, and I do plan on making a much bigger post refuting my own buttfuckery regarding gender because hoo boy, was I wrong. I pulled out an error and presented it as fact, and I’m sorry for that. I’ll make it up to you guys.

In the meantime, we hit our first sex scene. I did say that, except for a few instances, we’d be skipping the sex scenes, but in favor of being equal to both the m/m and f/f, I’m going to touch upon the lesbian scene here very briefly.

Hurr. Touching upon.
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See you then!
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 6


Index
Brill's Intro

Quest
1 - Family || 2 - Weakness || 3 - Regret || 4 - Preparations || 5 - Picnic || 6 - Realization


All right! So. This is Chapter 6, which starts off our next section of chapters to analyze and take apart.

This chapter is also the reason I’m currently putting together Kurogane/Goku porn in my head to put down on paper for the next Let’s [Re]Write segment which is going to be started EARLY and EDITED because I seriously embarrassed myself with what I wrote last time. This chapter gets ALL THE FAULTS for it. All of them.
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In other news, Vegeta/Legal!Goten plotbunnies are passing up Goku/Vegeta plotbunnies in the case of "which would I like to write moar?"  Goddammit, brain.
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's (Re)Write] Maintaining: Chapters 1-5

Today’s entry is not going to be a “Let’s Read” -- I am going to hopefully get back to that tomorrow, time and energy permitting.

Instead, what I’m going to do today is hit the “Pause” button on this fic, take some time to look over the analysis we’ve done so far, take the constraints and rules I discussed in past chapters, and put them to use to show how I would have handled these chapters, were I writing them.

We will begin by recapping all the rules I bolded in the chapters past. And then--going from that list of rules--I’ll explain (and even show snippets of) how I’d write this.

Please keep in mind that these are NOT my attempt to formally re-write the entire fic. I am definitely interested in doing so, but the fact is, this is Pixelgoddess’s creation, and unless I have her explicit permission, I won’t be doing anything but this.

Let’s get started.

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I have some work stuff tomorrow, so I might not post the next (few) chapter(s) until a few days from now. Hopefully I’ll see you guys sooner than that!
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 5


All right! Chapter 5. This is where I think the story starts kicking off and setting the plot in motion.

Unfortunately, it sets a lot of other things in motion, too. Character Derailment being one of those things. In fact...I think it’s ALL OF THE THINGS. But I am getting ahead of myself.

Let’s take a look, shall we?
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I’m going to be taking a break tomorrow to do something a little different. It’s a subset of Let’s Read that I’m going to call “Let’s [Re]Write.” As I said, there were things that I would have done differently--though not BETTER--and every five chapters or so, I’m going to hit pause, go back through those chapters I analyzed, and discuss how I would handle them. This will range from just explaining what I’d do to full-out writing excerpts, and I’m pretty stoked about it. Until then!
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Chapter 3 and Chapter 4

Index

Quest
1 - Family || 2 - Weakness || 3 - Regret || 4 - Preparations ||

Okay, remember when I said we’d be getting to the meat of this? Well, I was mistaken. But it’s okay, because I do like this chapter! I like that it addresses how Goku is the BEST DAD EVER, personally.
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I think I'll do Chapter 5 tomorrow.
daffodils, chromatic_coma, ilu man, never regret

[Let's Read] Maintaining: Intro, Chapter 1, and Chapter 2

Here's the analysis I was talking about!  I wrote it tonight.  I remembered that I had a name for the analysis-recap-rambly thing, but then I couldn't remember it. 

But then I did remember it again!

I am going to name this:  Let's Read.

This is where I look at a fanfic, take it apart, and deconstruct it.  Except instead of making dick jokes, I analyze what worked for me, what didn't, and what I would do differently were it my fanfic.

So with no further adieu, let's get started!



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So there you have it!  The first two chapters of "Maintaining", and my thoughts on them  I want feedback, discussion, the works.  Think I'm going too easy, or too harsh?  Feel free to tell me so!  ...Respectfully.